Last weekend my roommates and I made the trip out to the Smithsonian Museum of American History. Soon enough, I found myself gazing into the original kitchen of Julia Child (there's an entire exhibit) and joining a crowd that watched replays of old Julia Child episodes with eyes bigger than our stomachs. Beyond Child's renown love for butter, I believe there's another aspect of bravery that I admire her for. She took on challenges--new recipes, the french language, deboning a duck--with as much confidence as a woman with a large knife could muster.
And so, that's how I've felt these last couple of weeks--a struggle to brandish my own small butter knife in a business world of machetes and cleavers.
The last two weeks I became an expert on topics I never knew about: adult ice skating, homebuyer assistance programs, foreclosure auctions and grand cycling tours. I've had to research to build confidence. I've had to decode acronyms. I've had to pray to God that I could decipher documents. It's a thrilling feeling when you find the answers to your long list of questions but the beginning always feels like a new recipe (in Bulgarian rather than French). You have no idea what you're doing but by the end of the last sentence and once you hit "send," you learned something. You're always learning.
I think that's the part of this experience that keeps me going under the pressure. I have an uncanny desire to learn and to be a part of something foreign to me. You're knife becomes sharper when the questions you ask become more specific. At the foreclosure auction I ended up covering, I felt like a pro as I discussed homebuyer programs with realtors. I had become just as hyped about HFAs and how the VHDA was providing SPARC while the DDOT was helping employees (basically the conversation was mostly capital letters). The same happened with the grand cycling tour story which took me to the Italian embassy to chat with the Mayor of D.C. at a huge gala. By the end I wanted to jump on a bike and compete myself (I just learned how to ride a bike a couple years ago).
I'm never knowing what my internship or my time in D.C. will take me. I've been trying to fill my free time with short adventures (which can be hard to do when you would rather sleep than walk a mile). In the past two weeks I cruised around the Library of Congress and got a research card. I saw the Hope Diamond at the Smithsonian Natural History Museum. I attended a feminist book talk at the Busboys and Poets coffee shop. I celebrated Valentines Day by eating a bananas ice cream dish with my roommates. I interviewed the CEO of a nonprofit against poverty. I gazed at rows and rows of fish at the Chesapeake fish market. I worshiped in the Lincoln theater. I listened to an interview with my professor and Denzel Washington for a class assignment. I watched the remains of the snowpocalypse slowly melt away. I ate tacos with crime reporters at the National Press Club. I got my shoe stuck in an escalator. I walked past the Capitol building for the twentieth time and still felt amazed.
I'm still deciphering the "Cookbook for D.C. Interns" but with each experience and editor critique, I can feel my confidence getting a little sharper. Now, if only to master national politics...
